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15 Years Ago…



Fifteen years ago, I had lost all hope in my life. Things seemed bleak and unfixable. Nothing I did turned out right, and I seemed to make only bad decisions and choices. One Sunday morning, I awoke and sat at my kitchen window, hopeless and ready to leave the world. A hummingbird appeared  and hovered there staring at me.

I had always been religious and was raised in the Southern Baptist faith. A few years before that day, I had converted to Catholicism searching for something that spoke to me. Something that gave me purpose. It didn’t.

And so, on this Sunday morning, I got up and dressed. I got in the car not sure where I was going. I came to a T in the road, both physically and metaphorically at a crossroads. Turn left – I go to the Catholic Church. Turn right – I end up at a church I had just heard about – the Church of Religious Science – a New Thought church.

As I neared the crossroad, I took a deep breath and just trusted – in what, I didn’t know. I turned right. I wish I could say that I reached a grand epiphany here and that the skies opened and angels sang. But no.

I entered this strange church and somehow felt at home. The message? We are responsible for what happens in our lives. Each event is a direct outcome of a choice we have made. What? I’m responsible for this mess of my life? No way! And yet, something resonated.

I met the pastor and made friends quickly. I started attending each week and even signed up for Religious Science of Mind classes. After a few weeks, my life was still a mess. My friend and pastor/teacher saw and decided to take matters into her own hands.

She dragged me one Saturday to hear a lecture by a man whose message would change my life in a huge way. We drove to San Diego and listened to Dr. Wayne Dyer. Listening to him and hearing his voice changed my life.

His message was simple and made sense. What stood out in my mind was something that has been shared everywhere. He said, “When you change the way you look at things, the things you are looking at change. At every moment, you can either be a host to God or a hostage to your ego.” BAM! I woke up! (Cue the angels singing here!)

I had the distinct pleasure of meeting him after the lecture. You see, my friend/pastor/teacher knew him well, so I got a front seat ticket. He took my hand, looked me in the eyes, and told me that I was in the right and perfect place in my life right then and there. No matter where we are, we are in the right and perfect place. He said I was doing a great job on my path and that I was OK!

He was diagnosed in 2009 with leukemia. I emailed him to offer support. No, we weren’t friends by any means, but he had saved my life, and I wanted to thank him in some way. I offered him Reiki and to include him in my healing circle. I knew he wouldn’t remember me, but I wrote anyway. You know what? He remembered me.

He assured me that he was not afraid and shared the same message he had shared with Oprah Winfrey, his close friend. He said that his body was merely reacting to some kind of trauma during his life, and he was fine with that. He had made his choices, and this was the result. His body knew what it was doing. And should it come, he was not afraid of death. It was just another grand adventure. His death did not come back then. He beat Leukemia and continued to teach his wisdom.

He left this world this past Saturday at the age of 75. I have been so wrapped up in my own life lately that I had forgotten his message from those years. I will miss his light and wisdom in this world. And it strikes me how Universe, God, reminds us of what we need at the most crucial times of our lives. In fact, I would imagine that Dr. Dyer had a part in it. At least, his energy sure did.

And so, today, as I reflect on Dr. Dyer and what he meant to me, I remember his messages and write this as a tribute to him. I only met him once, but read all of his books and listened to his audio messages. I considered him a friend because of how he impacted my life 15 years ago. I owe him my life now.

And so, here’s to you, Dr. Dyer, on your next grand adventure! For us that stay here right now, you will be remembered. And for myself, I intend to enjoy this adventure for a long time, or at least, for as long as I am here.

To get to know more about Dr. Dyer and his message, you can visit

You won’t be sorry.

Camille Wylde

Camille is a poet, author, and artist with two books coming out soon. She leads women’s empowerment workshops and retreats focused on improving body image and teaching women to embrace their own beauty and sensuality. While the body of her work is in erotica and romance, she focuses on the strength of women and their inner voices. Kind hearted and loving, her motivation in writing and art is the beauty of women – all women!

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