I received a huge “Aha!” moment this week. I am a misfit! I am sharing this with you now because I hope to explain some of my own personal viewpoints.
I imagine that someone else may be experiencing the same feelings, thoughts, or whatever it is that we call these moments of clarity. I hope that, in my own small way, someone will find their own “Aha!” moment in this.
If you follow me on Twitter, then you know that my dearest friend made her transition this past week. At the same time, I had another crisis point in my life that shook me to the core. So, I took a few days off to re-center myself. Actually, I think I have been coming to this point for a few weeks. Then, bam! My body succumbed to a really nasty cold
I normally only get a cold once a year, and thought I had served my time with one in December. But this marks two in two months. I am planning that this is the only cold I get this year, and that my body just decided to get it over with.
Just in case, I am listening to my body today and stayed home from my “job” to rest and heal. Between the emotional pain and mental pain, my body simply decided I needed time to take for myself.
This is where the “Aha!” moment comes in. You see, I am of a religion or spiritual belief that is not considered mainstream to most people. I really have not considered that I might have to explain myself or my beliefs and be considered unworthy of friendship because of such. But as I was offering my own beliefs based on my upbringing and on deep soul searching in my life, I realized that there are many who simply cannot understand.
And that’s ok! I understand that completely. In fact, in my earlier years, I felt the same. Perhaps, it’s my life experience, age, or simply that the teachings I follow are inclusive and non-judgmental of any other religious or spiritual belief. Whatever it is, this I know for a fact.
I am not ashamed of my beliefs. I do not feel the need to justify why I believe as I do, nor do I feel the need to condemn another for their own beliefs, even if they do not coincide with mine.
That being said, I have come to the realization that I am who I am because of my life experiences. Pain and hurt from family and friends has been a constant companion of mine, it seems. But through it all, I have grown stronger.
I have had to walk away from those that were intent on hurting me or attempting to change who I am for the sake of “fitting in.” I have become ostracized within my own family because of how I believe. While I miss certain members, I am ok with it. Why? Because this is who I am. And who I am is nothing to be ashamed of.
From my own Twitter and Facebook feeds, it is clear that here are many others that feel the same. In fact, I think it is safe to say that most of us in the creative community feel the same. I have asked of myself many times who I am. Often the answers are built upon what those in my life expect me to be, and not who I really am.
I am a misfit! Yep! I said it! My spiritual beliefs are not what most call mainstream. My personal beliefs certainly are not mainstream. And yet, to all who look at me on the surface, I look as mainstream as they come. Hmm …. Maybe I should change that!
Here’s the “Aha!” moment! I am a woman who has experienced much in her life. I am an artist, poet, writer, lover, mother, sister, woman. I am a woman how loves and loves deeply. I am proud of who I am, and I refuse to allow anyone to belittle that part of me that is core to my beliefs. I am a woman who is a misfit and will not apologize for being me! I don’t need to. Others that have an issue with me? Well, that is their own projection of their own fears. Or maybe, they just wish they could be themselves as well.
Those that are comfortable with themselves rarely denigrate others. Those that are insecure or have fears about themselves are often the most critical and judgmental.
I challenge my readers to embrace those parts that do not fit into society’s rule-book. Be you! Brazen, in-your-face, you!
Aha! That’s it! We are all amazing and wonderful creatures. No apologies! Be you! Be Bold! And don’t let anyone take that away from you!
Camille is a poet, author, and artist with two books coming out soon. She leads women’s empowerment workshops and retreats focused on improving body image and teaching women to embrace their own beauty and sensuality. While the body of her work is in erotica and romance, she focuses on the strength of women and their inner voices. Kind hearted and loving, her motivation in writing and art is the beauty of women – all women!